Je me souviens


We are in Quebec city for a week of rest and relaxation. Our first day here we rode our bikes down rue St. Jean and observed a dog in the upper left window of the building pictured above. Here is a closer look:

He sits there calmly regarding the street scene below. I’ve passed by several times since, including once at about 9 PM, and he is always there.

Full Green Corn Moon

Yesterday at 6:54 AM was the full moon. It completely escaped my attention at the time so tonight I was surprised to see the rising moon was on the wane already.

The season turned slightly in the last 24 hours. The air is crisper. Last night we sat on the patio watching the fire die down and Dave went inside to fetch a quilt to wrap ourselves in.

It’s been hard to figure out what to write lately. We have a houseguest — a welcome one who has a broken leg and needs care. The problem has been I’ve been increasingly uneasy lately when friends tell me I’m a saint.

The truth is I’m okay. I’m even pretty nice. But I get tired and cranky, and I crab at my poor husband. I don’t even know how I feel about what we’re doing sometimes, but I know it is the right thing to do.

And it is also the right thing to take our slightly delayed vacation next week. Fortunately we have a lovely friend who is moving in to help out while we get lost in Quebec City.

For a change, we decided to stay in one place for a whole week. Typically we’ll stay one or two nights somewhere and then move on. I’m looking forward to a big fat cafe-au-lait and croissant in the morning, biking wherever I need to go and just sitting in an outdoor cafe watching the world go by. To paraphrase some movie from some other time, is this heaven? No, it’s Canada.

5 years today!

This is what I saw in your eyes: Defiance. Intensity. Love.

Didn’t you know how strong you are? How powerful? In a burst of passion you would make your break to freedom and then graze blissfully along the shore as if nothing had ever happened out of the ordinary. What a pleasure to watch you run unbridled, feet pounding, earth shaking, grass flying.

I will never shape your words, or presume to finish your thoughts. I will only seek to understand who you are, and stand my ground in awe and wonder as you gallop nearer and nearer to me.

At the end of day, I will come to you with a handful of simple pleasures and lead you home. And it will be full of warmth and light and laughter and friends.

And you will always be free.

(Dave Clark, August 5, 2001)

Let me live in a house by the side of the road and be a friend to man